Sadness and the happiness

I
don’t look for help and it doesn’t find me. Help never saves me, my
sanity usually does. Love rarely finds me either I just trip and brake
my neck on it over and over again always feeling more dead inside in the
end.
Love and me kind of hate each other because rejections my best friend
and sadness is my sister. We all live in a house together and envy and
anger come over every once and a while to make trouble with sadness.
She’s always attempting suicide, it’s the most annoying thing ever. I’m
always asking her “Why can’t you jut get over things?” and she starts to
cry.
I need to get out of this house but they locked all the doors, they can
only slither their way out through the keyholes, I on the other hand
can't. I mean even the windows have bars. Happiness stops by whenever
sadness gets sick, the house is cool for a few days then it gets crazy
again. And I’m just there dying with the house, the walls feel like
they’re falling in. Everyday stuck in this house I pray for them to kill
me. But no, I'm forced to live another day to put up with rejection and
sadness tantrums.
Happiness will stop by again I’ll beg for her to stay just a few more
days. She does but soon it subsides she leaves and I die. Metaphorically
speaking because I know better then to try and die like sadness and
plus anger and lust would kill me if I tried. They can’t stand sadness
either. I watch them come and leave still making my plan to escape but
still not knowing how. Fear stopped by and the house turned black and
white and life got a bit cloudy and sadness attempted again.
I just went with anger to the hospital and listened while she told
sadness off. My head, hands and feet held by chains. Envy holding the
keys. I just give up and go home with them. They lock the door and I
stood with rejection sitting with love. They try to rekindle they’re
love but once sadness come home it’s over again. I told rejection I
wanted to leave the house. She told me I held the way out. I didn’t
understand what she meant. I don’t have a key or any key to any door in
this house. She pointed to my head and my heart its in there you’ll find
it. I sat with lost on my bed he weaved in and out of my vision quickly
disappearing then coming back he wasn’t helping my contemplation so I
told him to leave. He yelled its right in front of you you’re so blind. I
went over to my desk and took out a small box inside it was a shriveled
heart. My heat. I took a pen from my desk and stabbed the heart until
it opened and there I found my key. I ran to the door sadness chasing
after me come back she called you can’t leave! I ran and opened the door
and slammed it into her face. I could hear her sobs as I ran into the
blackness of this unknown world. I collapsed onto grass as it started to
rain. I felt the water drip onto my skin and found happiness not far
off sleeping under a tree. I finally was free.

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